Im still in awe that I was able to pull through a solo bazaar. I didnt imagine that I would be using two tables, my own beading table and the organizer's. Who would imagine that I filled up every space there was with items I did. I started creating since January but I didnt give as much passion as I gave when August 1 came. Since the first day of August I was like a machine - cutting, circling, twisting, match making and packing. I made a lot of everything I wanted to show, share and sell. Because of my early preparations, I was able to practically sit and relax the day before my big day. Yup, I went to the mall and bough two lights for my booth and had a wonderful dinner with Din, a first for me.
From the time I started joining bazaars with my cousins I was always, always still in a hurry to make something or to finishing something or to prepare for something. I always get tensed and restless the day before which affects my mood for the big day. As I was thinking of the many reasons why I was always like that, I could only think of one major reason and that is if I would be able to make a sale since my cousins and I make the same items. We only vary with the bead colors we choose and the materials we want to play with. And since doing the solo thing yesterday, I realized a lot of things.
Since January I have been playing with one material which my cousins do not usually play with and that is wire (aluminum and copper). From that time I fell in love with the things I was able to do, create and define. Now that I have concentrated on a medium and made the most of what I could think of given the time I have, I was so happy to say that the bazaar yesterday at Tahanan Village was a sort of a solo exhibit too for me. I showcased all of my creations! And my audience loved them! But don't get me wrong here, little did I know that my cousin wont join the recently concluded bazaar have I not asked her if she is already preparing for it. I was shocked to hear that she wont join and forego of this wonderful event. With that, well I couldn't do anything about it and just informed her that I will try my luck and go solo. Luckily, luck was on my side and the situation made me realize that I could pull through, relaxed and happier!